Accepting My Death

He shines 

Like the sun

That smile

Bright 

Brilliant 

Exploding through his eyes

To bathe me in his warmth

And yet when 

His gaze turns

It’s cold

My sun becomes

Just another far-flung star 

And I’m left

Hollow 

Shivering

I can feel the blood slowing 

And freezing me from inside

Convinced it’s the last of me

Ready to let go

Until he wraps me in his arms

To thaw me out

One more time 

shatteredGlass

And I notice

Another crack

That wasn’t there before 

More and more 

Splintered

Ugly

Deformed

Unwanted

Discarded 

No one wants 

The leftover 

Shards

Of what used to be 

Cathedral stained glass

The Nameless

Fear 

Crippling and blinding

I couldn’t name it 

If even it had a name

A thousand years old

And crawling like a spider

Up my throat 

Killing me 

From the inside

Lullaby Concerto

She’s deliberate 

With every word

It’s beautiful to see

Behind her eyes as

She struggles to find

The perfect blend

Of cadence and diction

Lulled to sleep by

The excitement in her face

And the symphony 

In her voice 

Hypnotized 

By her conductor’s hands 

As they punctuate 

The rhythm of her story 

And the matching beat of 

My heart