Thursday, August 27, 2015

Perspective

I didn't do anything wrong 
I didn't do anything wrong
I'm an innocent victim
I'm an innocent victim
I didn't know she'd believe me
I didn't know he'd lie to me
It didn't mean anything
It meant the world 
She'll be okay
I'm not okay
She's tough
I'm broken
I didn't do anything wrong
I did everything wrong 

Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Passing Years; Stagnant Time

Stay here he said
And I did
Good little girl 
Content to watch clouds
Rewarded with chocolates
And hair ribbons for my patience
Stay here he said 
And I did
Curled up on the porch swing
Watching his truck pull away
Already counting my numbers
To pass the time
Until he came back
My world, my love 
Until I counted higher than ever before
Day into
Night into
Day into
Night
Again and again
But I stayed 
Because he asked me to
And there was no where else to go 

Monday, August 24, 2015

The Lilith Altar

Beg
Pitiful thing
I'll pretend you are
What you once were
You forgot you were worthless
I'll remind you 
Plead
Pathetic thing
I'll make you believe
You need me
You thought you were strong
I'll make you feed on the lies
You told her as if I created them first
I will cage you
I will beat you
I will crush you
I will watch you shatter 
And you will say my name 
Every time you die 

Friday, August 21, 2015

The Broken Girl and The Clever Boy - White





                “Hi. I don’t believe we’ve met. My name is Tom, and I’m madly in love with you.”

                The message flashed across the blank White of the screen.

                Six years. Six years that flew in a heartbeat. She wished on every wishing star and four leaf clover to be noticed. And if she had to be honest with herself, she loved him for the last two of those six years. He was funny, charming, clever, and incredibly pretty. Unsure about making such an irrational confession, she chose to watch and to dream. Every day she would make her social media rounds hoping he’d posted a joke or funny story about gaming. Some days she was rewarded with the slightly crooked smile of an avatar while chatting with friends. Some days her heart would gallop when she got a Guild log-in notification.

                So here she sat facing a computer screen that made her cover her mouth with her hand. Unable to breathe and on the verge of tears, she sat dumfounded. The harsh White backdrop contrasted sharply against the black letters. There it was. Everything she ever wanted.

                And she had no idea what to do next.

                FIFTEEN SECONDS AGO…………

                This time he would hit send. He swore it. He’d seen her struggle each time she was told she was fat or ugly or dumb. He’d watched the façade of self-esteem break behind the scenes. She was plenty strong on the surface and had nearly everyone fooled. But he knew for years about the fragileness that she kept from the world. He’d seen it in heartbreaking posts she was convinced no one saw.

                It devastated him.

                He had no idea how she felt about him, but he knew she deserved better.

                She deserved to know how he felt.

                He took a deep breath and stared at the blank White typing field.

                And once again Tom started to type. “Hi. I don’t believe we’ve met………”

Thursday, August 20, 2015

They Would Whisper

I was beautiful once
Loved and cared for
I was majestic and splendid
People would walk by
And stop to admire
They would whisper 
Between themsleves
I wonder who lives here
I wish she was mine
I'd give anything to own her 
But I was empty
And left to rot and fade
People would walk by
But they stopped admiring
They would whisper 
Between themselves 
I wonder who abandon her
I wish someone would fix her
She needs a lot of work and time 
And rain fell
And sun beat
And time took its toll
And people would walk by
They would whisper
Between themsleves 
How disgusting
What an eyesore
I don't know how she's even standing
I would tear her down 
I heard them all 
I believed them
And I prayed for my destruction
Since no one knew my story

Claimed

"As it pleases You,"
Said the subservient heart.
And Death kissed her mouth. 

Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Coax

There's a flower
Tucked away
A little sun
A little rain
And he'll lean in
Unfold, open, and worship 
At the alter of you